last night i heard a song

Last night, i heard a song.

Her voice is beautiful and the lyrics mean so much to me. Or, at least, they meant.

She sang this one part: «I'd never sing of love if it does not exist»

I would sing about love anyway, but i didn't really know he existed. I never experienced it... not until September 2010. Not until he came.

He came and stole my heart in a week and a half.
I never knew how he did it, in his simplicity. But he just did, and he was the only one that could.

He gave me the best month and a half of my life, where I felt the most love, affection and happiness I ever had.

Since the day we split, the day I stopped feeling truly complete (which I never felt before or after), I couldn't find someone like him. Someone that made me feel special, protected and loved.

But don't get me wrong! I haven't stopped living just because of one guy I don't even talk to anymore. I found someone else after him, someone I knew that loved me. He just didn't love me the way I needed to. And I didn't love him back that much - I couldn't. He didn't give me the feel of pure bliss I had with M. I knew there was bigger love for me to feel out there, so I couldn't love him that way. And, because of that, I wasn't very happy and I still felt a hole in my heart - not as big as before, but even so.

So, when we broke up, I looked for the one I wanted, needed. I still am... But I know I'll find him, again (in some way).



I believed in love before you, yes. But I didn't really believed in love for me. And you made me believe.

Then you took the love, affection and happiness away, and some of the belief I had was gone too.


You gave me all, and then took it all. And I never really knew how you did it.